a tough couple of days

I keep thinking things will get easier with time passing but so far it is the opposite.  I feel more filled with grief each day.  I now fully understand the meaning of "overcome with grief".    I think it distresses me even more to think about how you would view my uncontrollable weeping.  How in the world did I ever think I was prepared for your departure from this world?

A neighbor lady called yesterday, very upset and needed some emotional support.  At least the hours spent helping her were a short distraction from my own pain.

You are everywhere and no where.  Everything makes me think of you yet you aren't there for me to talk to.    Oliver and I walked in the woods a couple of days ago, it was really humid and rainy but nice and cool in the woods, we came across a plant that looked like is was in the trillium family, I took photos of it next to my hand to get a general idea of its size.

I miss you so much!