I finally finished the book I was reading about being an orphaned adult. The most difficult 190 pages I think I've ever read. It was a great help and I'm sure I'll be returning to it at some point.
I am trying to find hope and happiness in small things. Walking and running in the woods has provided the most relief.
Having several friends in addition to Matte, who are willing to listen to my grief has helped too. I know I will never stop missing you, ever.