Three Months

I cannot believe you have been gone for only three months.  It seems like so long since I've seen you or spoken to you.  How can it just be three months...   I started on my certification process and my lack of attention for studying has been very discouraging.  I can't seem to maintain enthusiasm for anything for any great length of time.   I know I have many things to be grateful for but that doesn't help at all with the depression, it makes it worse in fact because it is guilt for being depressed + depression.

We took a day trip to Portsmouth a few weekends ago and took a harbor cruise.  Like most things we seem to do, it too reminded us of you and how you liked to get out and do things.

It was a really fun day of just mainly wandering around and having a really nice lunch.  Now we're starting on winter preparations, ordering firewood and pellets.  I've heard the geese passing over a couple of times already and have been seeing lots of young turkeys out and about.

This little catbird fledgling hit the window a few days ago but was fine after being held for a while.  The birds are pretty steady, the hummingbirds still harassing all the other birds though their feeder is on the other side of the yard.  

We both just miss you so much.